I have found myself recently reflecting back on this last year - the ups, downs, joys and sorrows. So much has happened since the beginning of 2009 - the list is long. It almost seems like I have dealt with more in 2009 than in the rest of my whole adult life combined. I found myself on the verge of a breakdown more than once. I have shed more tears than I ever thought possible. Even through all of these sad and hard times I have seen my marriage grow stronger and stronger. I have an amazing husband and couldn't do it without him. He helped me move past worrying about all the "what ifs" and just live our life. I have witnessed my true friends stand by my side or even lay by my side when I have been crying in bed and help pull me through(you guys know who you are). My friends and family drove hours to come down to our house to make dinner, clean the house or just play with Hailey. I have had more acquaintances and friends of friends call me just to see how I was or send me a card to show they are thinking of us. I can't believe all the love and support we have. I have been informed that we are on prayer lists all over the country, even in England! I even received a beautiful hand made Prayer Blanket for Dylan from a co-worker's church. People who I don't even know are so touched by Dylan and his story that they follow this blog and send me an e-mail or comment now and then just to let me know they are there. It is utterly amazing.
Soon after we got the diagnosis I received phone calls from two moms of children with special needs (one has a 6y/o with WHS) who were friends of friends of friends and they listened to me when I felt that no one else could possibly understand. I cried to these total strangers(and wonderful women) on the phone for over an hour and they didn't mind. They understood, they had gone through everything that I was going through and shared their stories with me. I finally felt like I wasn't alone. Now I know I am not alone thanks to the blog world. I have met so many wonderful families with children with WHS. It has helped me tremendously to read their comments and words of encouragement. I want to send out a big THANK YOU to all my fellow bloggers - you are all amazing people!
After Dylan was born I started a journal and today I was reading over what I had written one year ago. I had a lot of feelings of shock, anger and sadness. I found it very hard to find happiness in my days. I honestly just wanted to run away from it all, I couldn't handle it. I could barely look at him without crying. I could barely drive to a doctor's appointment without crying. Now I can't look at him without smiling. I am not saying that I don't have hard days, I do, but I definately have happier ones than a year ago. Dylan is so greatly loved by our family, friends and everyone who meets him. I have had more people ask me how he is doing than I could even count. Without saying a word he melts your heart and will change your life. I appreciate life more because of him and I think a lot of other people do too.